November 27, 2013
This is one of the more difficult posts I’ve had to write. It’s
Thursday now and I fly out of Vienna on Friday morning. It’s been a long
three months here. I’ve befriended some lovely people and I’ve also met
some people I was not very fond of. I have grown apart from some things
and have valued other things much more highly. I’m no longer afraid of
living in a city, public transportation seems much simpler, and
traveling is a breeze. But I’ve also missed my family, getting to see my
baby nephew learning his first words, spending Thanksgiving with my
extended family and driving a car.
I’ve learned a lot here. I’ve learned about history, art, politics, and
cultures. I’ve learned about myself. I’ve learned what I care about and
what I don’t need. I have had so many experiences that I never would
have if I had sat at home. I have stories that fill my head from people
I’ve met. I now have lots of material for my writing from this
adventure.
I did not get as homesick as I imagined I would. It wasn’t until the
end that I started longing for it. I think a part of me knew it would be
hard to handle if I thought too much about it.
Vienna is a beautiful city with more charm than you could imagine. But
the holiday season is well upon us now and as the song goes, “There’s no
place like home for the holidays no matter how far away you roam, when
you long for the sunshine of a friendly gaze – for the holidays you
can’t beat home sweet home.” So as lovely and delightful as Vienna is,
it is not home. It’s felt like home after bad days and long journeys but
with the holidays being here I know it is not. I’ve never been away
from home at Thanksgiving until today. I’ve always been surrounded by my
grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, parents and brothers at
Thanksgiving. Being away has made me value that time so much more than I
had before.
Packing for Vienna was tough. I was going to a country I had been to
with a group of people I didn’t know. I was scared and I had no
guarantee what it would be like. Packing for home was bittersweet. I
packed up things that were filled with new memories and put them in a
suitcase without knowing when I will ever be back. On the other hand,
I’m going back to my family, my dogs, my friends, my job, my home, and
my country. I have guarantees where I’m going and that’s great. But it
was an incredible experience getting to put myself out there and praying
everything would work out. I’m so grateful that it did.
Vienna, you will always have a special place in my heart. I will be back someday. All my love.
Yours until the end of the Internet,
Eiggam
PAC Writer said: "What a heart warming story! This writer will go far. You sense the emotion, the yearning to be home and yet the sadness of leaving Vienna. Great Writing! PAC"
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